tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52437942805480339162024-03-26T23:37:11.913-07:00The Pensive PencePoetry blog with intermittent personal essaysPenny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.comBlogger53125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-40814835555577633222024-03-24T17:28:00.000-07:002024-03-24T17:28:25.792-07:00<p> Just keeping this blog going so Google doesn't wipe it on me.</p>Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-77251105668957497092023-07-30T11:33:00.003-07:002023-07-30T11:34:19.578-07:00Obligation<p>I used </p><p>to correct people</p><p>because</p><p>I had an obligation</p><p>to truth.</p><p><br /></p><p>Now I</p><p>ignore people</p><p>because</p><p>I have an obligation</p><p>to peace.</p><p><br /></p><p>Copyright <span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Arial; font-size: 18.666666px; white-space: pre-wrap;">© </span>Penny Lee Soutar 26 July 2023</p>Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-15218484530607650982023-03-21T09:43:00.001-07:002023-03-21T09:43:56.670-07:00Looking to Hire Semi-retired Introvert? <p>What have I been up to?</p><p>I decided to move away from classroom teaching at the end of this year! After many years in the classroom, teaching mostly science and math, but at points all subjects and all grade levels - at private and public (traditional and alternative) schools, I have decided that this introvert needs to stop living like an extrovert. I have done enough.</p><p>What will I do next? I don't know for sure. I am exploring the possibility of being a Special Education or English Language Learner para-educator, a classified librarian and a tutor. My goal is a support role instead the management role of a teacher. I am not retiring, per se, just off to do something different. </p><p>I will have some side hustles of dyeing wool and selling my crocheted work. Because of <a href="https://www.webmd.com/pain-management/what-to-know-intercostal-neuralgia">intercostal neuralgia</a>, (which took 30 years to diagnose) I am limited in what I can physically do...using my arms in repeated motion for more than 10 minutes inflames nerves in my back and incites horrific pain to the point of not being to twist, bend, cough, sneeze or even laugh. No, it is not fun, and I first developed this after a back injury in college. It flared up when I began stuffing bags at McDonald's when I was 25, a job that only lasted 2 months because of the pain. I have given up many activities I love because of it: cake decorating, sewing, gardening, cooking...the list goes on. Wool dyeing could never be a full time endeavor. Crochet time must be rationed and interrupted with other activities, but it is manageable in a slow, spaced bursts. It is what it is. </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpZJ5rDWzn7qz2CeMikgHhV74DH0bTJVs5Ur2EX1CMo6yxVdr0v1-nxXqjc6K6V2cyDix0IlcGxkeXiJjTFaNRca0VzS7oB-2VXMffxoZ7M7nVcdTDmkkyavgkr3zRcN6y4KvMdRwe2BtuQWjePcjiBj2nEkIwfUeMe036WY0so-udvYaw-tIatJRW7Q/s1124/Screenshot%202023-03-21%20at%209.27.37%20AM.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="560" data-original-width="1124" height="199" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgpZJ5rDWzn7qz2CeMikgHhV74DH0bTJVs5Ur2EX1CMo6yxVdr0v1-nxXqjc6K6V2cyDix0IlcGxkeXiJjTFaNRca0VzS7oB-2VXMffxoZ7M7nVcdTDmkkyavgkr3zRcN6y4KvMdRwe2BtuQWjePcjiBj2nEkIwfUeMe036WY0so-udvYaw-tIatJRW7Q/w400-h199/Screenshot%202023-03-21%20at%209.27.37%20AM.png" width="400" /></a></div><p></p><p>I have reduced my living expenses and will age in place in my tiny home. I continue to unpack and unfetter myself from excess STUFF. Three hundred eighty six square feet doesn't afford much storage space. But, there is no hurry. The boxes will be there until they aren't. I have pathways, it's OK.</p><p>I love the alienness of the desert. It is enchanting, in an otherworldly way. Not Upstate New York beautiful, but it has it's moments. Of course I compare the visual quality of everything I see to my easy-on-the-eyes Allegheny Plateau. Nothing really compares the the rolling, forested hills of home. I desperately miss New York, but to remain independent I need the lower cost of living this lovely Sonoran Desert offers. And of course, the sauna like temperatures of summer and days of endless sunshine are an added bonus. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9kxuNUaHHEvz6-1NU6beKlRkXSIObxJx8l4KuiSBrgSxkB0gObXUccq_sC0LKCA4g6mJCjEeGUacYdVb_jn0Ad9TZ-hntR62i3b4894sZzY8eflMRhrpxffwnGWk0wEzZV1rKYkSehuLL_mVaoPjp1vLgIG43RJWQ1P0kxsk53oXT9fXEg7Y4TKwLsQ/s2104/Screenshot%202023-03-21%20at%209.23.20%20AM.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="740" data-original-width="2104" height="186" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9kxuNUaHHEvz6-1NU6beKlRkXSIObxJx8l4KuiSBrgSxkB0gObXUccq_sC0LKCA4g6mJCjEeGUacYdVb_jn0Ad9TZ-hntR62i3b4894sZzY8eflMRhrpxffwnGWk0wEzZV1rKYkSehuLL_mVaoPjp1vLgIG43RJWQ1P0kxsk53oXT9fXEg7Y4TKwLsQ/w528-h186/Screenshot%202023-03-21%20at%209.23.20%20AM.png" width="528" /></a></div><p></p><p>And so, I march on to the unknown. Decisions, decisions! Thank you for your support during this time of transition. I'll keep you posted.<br /></p><p>Penny Lee Soutar, <span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 14pt; white-space: pre-wrap;">© </span>copyright 21 March, 2023 </p><p><br style="font-family: Times; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; widows: 2;" /></p>Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-30812221918199467242022-09-28T09:31:00.004-07:002022-09-28T09:32:20.869-07:00Kindness<p><br /></p><div class="l7ghb35v kjdc1dyq kmwttqpk gh25dzvf jikcssrz n3t5jt4f" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I had an experience this past week that made my heart pound. It made me wish I had thicker skin. It made me wish I was stronger.</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">At first.</div></div><div class="l7ghb35v kjdc1dyq kmwttqpk gh25dzvf jikcssrz n3t5jt4f" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">After I processed it...and continue to process it, I have concluded that my initial reaction goes against my nature. </div></div><div class="l7ghb35v kjdc1dyq kmwttqpk gh25dzvf jikcssrz n3t5jt4f" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">I am <span style="font-family: inherit;"><a style="color: #385898; cursor: pointer; font-family: inherit;" tabindex="-1"></a></span>a kind person. I treat others with kindness. I am strong. The stronger I get, the kinder I treat people. I don't need thicker skin, I need to physically and emotionally walk away from unkindness.</div></div><div class="l7ghb35v kjdc1dyq kmwttqpk gh25dzvf jikcssrz n3t5jt4f" style="caret-color: rgb(5, 5, 5); color: #050505; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 15px; margin: 0.5em 0px 0px; overflow-wrap: break-word; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">So, this experience has caused me to be kinder to others, and kinder to myself.</div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></div><div dir="auto" style="font-family: inherit;">September 30, 2022. Copyright Penny Lee Soutar</div></div>Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-57569722225297519692022-01-07T18:58:00.001-08:002022-01-07T18:58:16.931-08:002021 The Year of Grieving<p> I lost several people I loved in 2021. None of them from COVID 19. I was sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. </p><p>Time. I needed time.</p><p>So I took it.</p>Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-36479430902733043052021-01-10T18:52:00.002-08:002021-01-10T18:56:26.491-08:002020 - The Year of Climbing Mountains.<p> </p><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="float: right;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbHb3BmMiJPS99OZJ1pblut3pwgYiWHK-MQLY7XQHBDhlz0_wkM06owGAkazi8yE1SMxQnAlNFvSlGZhNObdj_YAQDJIHEL7r5k7-JxefxNWwBB4BQEyIke5ee7UvQNvBhmtTUgEPT6ww/s4032/20200218_142407.jpg" style="clear: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbHb3BmMiJPS99OZJ1pblut3pwgYiWHK-MQLY7XQHBDhlz0_wkM06owGAkazi8yE1SMxQnAlNFvSlGZhNObdj_YAQDJIHEL7r5k7-JxefxNWwBB4BQEyIke5ee7UvQNvBhmtTUgEPT6ww/w400-h300/20200218_142407.jpg" width="400" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Mount Shasta, California</td></tr></tbody></table>Climbing mountains is the best description of 2020 I can devise. Leaving New York, finding a job, driving across the country, the death of my older sister, the COVID 19 pandemic, teaching remotely, social distancing, the death of my favorite cat, forest fires, and an imploding president are some of the mountains I climbed this past year. <p></p><p>Some 'climbing' was physical. I drove through the Appalachians, Smokeys, Rockies, Sierra Nevada and the Cascades to get back to my old school district in Washington to fill a need as a long term substitute teacher for the school I had lived near for 14 years. Working with people I knew, my daughter's previous teachers and in my old neighborhood? How could I say no that?</p><p>Some 'climbing' was emotional. I hadn't planned on ever moving back to Washington and was so content on the east coast, but to continue my career, Washington was my best bet. New York would only allow me to teach Earth Science and I wanted the option of teaching biology, chemistry and math. It was hard at first, but people welcomed me 'home' with open arms. I am back working with students, families and friends that I love. The pandemic has made things difficult, but not insurmountable.</p><p>Doing the best thing, the right thing, is not most often easy. It is, in fact, most often difficult. But after I climb that difficult mountain, I relish the view and the pride I feel in my accomplishment. And I learned to find joy in the journey. I visited a younger sister in Virginia and went to plop my feet into the Atlantic Ocean for the first time in my life. I drove to the Raleigh, North Carolina, to the Temple of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and observed the temple work of my father, brother, grandfather and great grandfather. I was sealed to my parents for time and all eternity, and participated in the sealing of my parents to each other, my brother to my parents, my grandparents together, my father to his parents (my grandparents) and my grandfather to his parents. 4 generations of Soutars sealed. A mountain peak of peace and gratitude, 41 years in the making.</p><p>I drove to Myrtle Beach and saw a friend from home whom I had not seen since graduation in 1979. I saw my older sister a mere few weeks before she passed away. I saw my daughter before the pandemic kept us two highly-infected states apart. I drove through new states! Tennessee, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Texas and New Mexico. All along my two, well-traveled kitties in the car who kept me deliciously cuddled in Motel 6 beds across America. I Facebook haikued my way across the mild, southern, February landscape and up the west coast back to Bothell where I was embraced with love and bids to 'come see us.'</p><p>And here I sit hoping for fewer mountains to climb this year, but the nation in crisis after the attack on the Nation's Capitol January 6, the constant change of growing older and the hope for a COVID vaccine sooner rather than later are my first hurtles. There will be more...and I must patiently remember: JOY IN THE JOURNEY.</p>Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-62184187162029948332020-07-31T19:10:00.004-07:002020-08-04T19:38:02.963-07:00Seasonal Influenza Death Totals Compared to COVID 19 Deaths as of July 31, 2020.<p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 0px 0px 6px;">"The seasonal flu kills people, too." </p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">Ok, yes it does. People have said it, but they haven't backed up their statement with data.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">I'm a science teacher, so I want numbers. I went to the CDC. The data is public.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">The following number of estimated deaths OF ALL AGES occurred during these associated years. </p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">2018-19 34,157 deaths<br />2017-18 61,099 deaths<br />2016-17 38,230 deaths<br />2015-16 22,705 deaths<br />2014-15 51,376 deaths<br />2013-14 37,930 deaths<br />2012-13 42,570 deaths<br />2011-12 12,447 deaths<br />2010-11 36,656 deaths</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">Keeping in mind that there is a seasonal shot for the seasonal flu, and nowhere are there remotely accurate estimates of how many influenza cases are PREVENTED by the flu shot, let's compare the number flu deaths per YEAR (12 months) to the number of COVID 19 deaths thus far recorded (6 months - end of Jan - July 31, 2020) by the CDC. (July, 31, 2020)</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">So far there are 151,499 deaths due to COVID 19 in the first 6 months of 2020. If we look at the number of deaths for 12 months for each of the years listed above, it would take the sum of last 4 years of flu deaths (2015-2019) to come close to how many COVID 19 has killed already for 2020. </p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">Total number of flu deaths recorded in 2015, 2016, 2017 and 2018 = 150,191 deaths, still lower than today's COVID 19 total (as of this writing) of 151,499.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">If you look at the particularly hard flu years of 2012, 2014 and 2017 and add them together, you get 155,045 flu deaths, which is actually more than today's total COVID 19 deaths. There were 1,216 new COVID deaths recorded since yesterday. If we make a blatantly unscientific assumption that the same number will continue to die every day after today, (I could run an algorithm to extrapolate the data into a best fit curve, but it's summer...) 2020 COVID 19 deaths would reach the same number of deaths as the three highest flu seasons above by August 3, 2020 at approximately 4 pm, CDC time.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">So, yes, the flu kills people. Lots of people. There is a flu shot. It does help stem the spread of the seasonal influenza, some. It is not 100% effective. I have had the flu, twice. Once without a shot (age 15) and once with a shot (40 something). Not something I want to repeat. I get a flu shot every year. </p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">The numbers show that this new coronavirus which causes COVID 19 is a more lethal illness than seasonal influenza. Numbers do not have emotions. Numbers do not choose sides of political or personal arguments. Numbers are what they are, representative data of each person who has lost their battle against a terrible disease.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">I do not want to experience COVID 19. I do not want to cough and choke for breath. My mother had asthma, that is what she died from when I was 16. I watched her die. It is a violent way to go.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">My age and underlying health conditions would no doubt cause any health care provider great concern as to the outcome of my battle with this disease. They cause ME concern.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">So, I will stay where I am. I will cautiously leave my disease free domicile in small trips for necessities and an occasional social distanced, outdoor excursion. I believe that battling COVID 19 is a far greater threat to my freedom to enjoy life than wearing a mask.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">Check out the CDC numbers; they speak for themselves.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;"><a href="https://www.cdc.gov" target="_blank">https://www.cdc.gov</a><br /></p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;"><br /></p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">Aug 3 update: at 7:35 Pacific Daylight time the CDC reports 155, 204 deaths.</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;"><br /></p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">Copyright 2020</p><p style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; margin: 6px 0px;">Penny Lee Soutar</p>Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-33553105184395086352020-07-12T10:05:00.000-07:002020-07-12T10:05:13.132-07:00Life in the Time of Corona VirusI didn't worry about catching it at first; I was more worried about being asymptomatic and giving it to someone who was vulnerable. Now that has changed, as I have learned that my age of 58 in combination with my high blood pressure puts me in that category. So I keep my distance.<br />
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I started my new job as a long term science sub at Leota Middle School on February 24. I saw students for all of 7 school days before we closed. I won't see them again for the rest of the year.<br />
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I've made a couple of masks, the first from a fitted bedsheet and harvested elastic, the second from a small bit of fabric I purchased on sale before I left New York. Lucky for me it was 100% cotton and a much higher thread count than the bedsheet. Yes, I buy cheap sheets.<br />
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I wore it once out and then washed it again directly. I don't think I am claustrophobic but can't tolerate tight collars. Not too bad since I only go out about once per week. Being one person alone, it is not hard to stock up, and I did that in anticipation of the stay at home order. I also purchased an Instant Pot before all this and my freezer is now full of soup. It'll last.<br />
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So after my experimental cooking endeavors, I have found it useful to be creative every day in some way. While constructing lessons for my classes I get to explore online science simulations and videos, then whirl them into engaging activities for my 7th and 8th graders. I've created videos of my nature walks and melded my ocean photos with a poetry reading of "Sea Fever" by John Mansfield.<br />
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I've painted a wooden sign to match my tropical colors of turquoise and bright blue. And I knit every day, just a straight garter stitch wrap in light purples and greens. My biceps tendonitis limits the number of rows I can do, but I still try to get in 5 or 6 a day.<br />
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I have done a little bit of unpacking, putting up artwork on the walls, living with it for a while, then moving it on to a new spot. I didn't bring furniture with me, so my apartment is arrayed with a lawn chair, some folding tables, mattress pads and a few crates for the TV to sit on. I'm camping but very comfortable.<br />
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And so it is...but for how long?<br />
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Penny Lee Soutar<br />
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<br />Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-76919004861493417892020-07-12T10:03:00.001-07:002020-07-12T10:09:32.414-07:00On the Burial of My Older Sister<div style="caret-color: rgb(29, 33, 41); color: #1d2129; font-family: system-ui, -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, ".SFNSText-Regular", sans-serif; font-size: 14px; margin-bottom: 6px;">
My sister Jo Ellen, who passed away Feb 29, was laid to rest yesterday in the same grave as her husband. I wrote this poem to express my sorrow, but it keeps leaking out of my eyes.</div>
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On the Burial of My Older Sister</div>
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I walked alone a mile today<br />
And noticed blossoms on the way.<br />
Junco parents thought it best<br />
To curse and drive me from their nest.<br />
You did not see; you did not hear;<br />
Because you are far gone from here.<br />
But when we meet again we'll sing<br />
Of burdocks, cow pies, snow in spring,<br />
And waterfalls and ships that sail-<br />
When next we meet beyond the veil. </div>
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Penny Lee Soutar<br />
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Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-46645716948791244032019-12-31T09:58:00.000-08:002019-12-31T10:06:33.213-08:002019 The Year of LearningI learned a great deal about myself this year. I learned about my past. I learned about my future. I learned Heavenly Father is with me in my greatest joys and my lowest lows. My head knew this, but now my heart does. I am a Child of God.<br />
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I learned a great deal about others. I learned things I surmised I would ever learn. Sad things. Abusive and unkind things that seem impossible but exist in the mortal world because we humans have agency - the right to choose how we treat others. I learned to do battle. I learned to walk away. I learned who I am not. I am a child of Integrity</div>
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Armed with this knowledge I will go forward into 2020 with greater testimony of peace, compassion and unwavering loyalty. I will go forward into rain storms with zero visibility and come out dry on the other side. I will serve the under privileged, the under represented and the under sieged and not falter in need. I am a child of Love.</div>
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Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-15658343041435211522018-12-29T17:55:00.001-08:002018-12-30T10:30:10.803-08:00One in Christ<div style="font-family: "book antiqua"; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; min-height: 17px;">
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">In it, he compares the Restored Church of Jesus Christ to the mighty Amazon River, which is a blending of the Solimões and Negro rivers. I did a little research and discovered the following: These rivers flow side-by-side over distance of six kilometres. The reason they never mix is because of the distinct differences in temperature, speed and water density between the two. The Solimões is faster, cooler and denser, its waters flowing up to 6 km/h at 22 degrees Celsius, and the warmer, slower waters of the Rio Negro flow more slowly 2 km/h, and maintain a temperature of around 28 degrees Celsius.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">Elder Soares says when new members join the church and truly merge with its membership the restored Church of Jesus Christ becomes even stronger and steadier. </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">4 And after they had been received unto baptism, and were wrought upon and cleansed by the power of the Holy Ghost, they were numbered among the people of the church of Christ; and their names were taken, that they might be remembered and nourished by the good word of God, to keep them in the right way, to keep them continually watchful unto prayer, relying alone upon the merits of Christ, who was the author and the finisher of their faith.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">5 And the church did meet together oft, to fast and to pray, and to speak one with another concerning the welfare of their souls.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">First of all, I didn’t say CONVERTS, because we are all CONVERTS.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">Elder Soares says we can help them do this in three ways, 1) they need to have friends; 2) They need assignments; and 3) They need to learn Gospel principles.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">So, how we nourish new members of the church? I did some more research and put Elder Soares' questions in an anonymous Google survey and gave it to some of my friends, (no one from this ward.) </span><br />
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<li style="font-family: "book antiqua"; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">Help me to learn the Gospel! Help me understand the scriptures, have the lesson manuals I need, and go to my classes. Do I have a ride to Sunday meetings or church activities? Ask me! Sometimes it’s had to advocate for myself because I feel like I am bothering others. When I learn these things I can help others.</span></li>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">We all know that we are imperfect people trying to learn, live and teach the gospel to each other. When we genuinely focus on individuals, we make the connections that bring us closer together as a community and church as a whole. I think the Primary Children’s Song Book easily covers these concepts:</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;"><i>I Am a Child of God, I’m Trying to Be Like Jesus, Love One Another, Jesus said Love Everyone, Give Said the Little Stream, We Welcome You, Our Door is Always Open, We are Different, </i>and my personal favorite,<i> Kindness Begins with Me.</i> </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">“They leave behind a world they knew well and choose to follow Jesus Christ, with full purpose of heart, joining a new “river” like the mighty Amazon River—a river that is a valiant force of goodness and righteousness that flows toward the presence of God.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">I’d like to return to the metaphor of the two distinctly different rivers merging together into the mighty Amazon. </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">When I first read about the specifics of the difference in the Solimões and Negro rivers, my science teacher sense kicked in. One river carries sand, silt and clay, small particles of weathered rock. These particles are carried from high in the Andes Mountains and deposited in the ocean as the speed of the Amazon river slows down when it mixes with the Atlantic Ocean off the coast of Brazil. The other river carries dissolved nutrients which are deposited in the same underwater region in likewise manner. To me, when I see sediments mixed with nutrients, I know that the end result of this mixture is underwater soil. So, in my final research, I searched for the conditions of the underwater areas in the Amazon Delta. In 2016, a massive coral reef that stretches for some 600 miles was discovered in these the muddy waters at the mouth of the river, and spans 3,600-square miles along the ocean floor. </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">These two great rivers, flow alongside each other and finally merge, bringing life giving waters to this coral reef. It is unique, perhaps even peculiar in a sense, since it is deeper and darker that what is expected for a reef, but it is a direct result of the mixing of the two rivers. The sand, silt and clay particles provide stability and surfaces for plants and coral to grow. The dissolved nutrients provide the organic compounds necessary to nourish the flora and fauna. Each river, by itself will not not produce this precious coral reef burgeoning with life. It is only when they travel side by side and merge together they can provide the necessary environment for life to thrive.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">Brothers and Sisters, we, both new and experienced members, are the rivers. Together we flow, side by side, each having a place in God’s kingdom, until we merge into the mighty Gospel of Jesus Christ. And with oneness in Christ, provide structure and nourishment for the restoration of the fullness gospel throughout the earth, so that we may, with our other brothers and sisters throughout all time and eternity, flow toward Christ our Redeemer.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none; font-size: large;">In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large; text-decoration: underline;"><a href="https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2018/10/one-in-christ?lang=eng">https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2018/10/one-in-christ?lang=eng</a></span></div>
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Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-3057499906103680922018-12-14T10:56:00.002-08:002018-12-15T16:05:39.919-08:00Caring For the Elderly<br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhW5oDTgfqKuQJZWwcKeEWRj25-cgVhlSpiKGfGDEKypaYidgjc4IU_Yi6ISqATLyUo6ZBoWiER7AE2-DZJX7n7Hty0LlobhBPNxpxopLXTtMDVbmpAnqzTVmFypbhhNDGHDhyphenhyphenClttjTXA/s1600/46513071_10217920193022157_2026741302581788672_o.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="1201" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhW5oDTgfqKuQJZWwcKeEWRj25-cgVhlSpiKGfGDEKypaYidgjc4IU_Yi6ISqATLyUo6ZBoWiER7AE2-DZJX7n7Hty0LlobhBPNxpxopLXTtMDVbmpAnqzTVmFypbhhNDGHDhyphenhyphenClttjTXA/s320/46513071_10217920193022157_2026741302581788672_o.jpg" width="240" /></a>As I have adjusted to moving to my parent's home in Big Flats, New York, I have come to a greater understanding of why it is essential to care for elderly as they wane from life.<br />
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<i>They deserve to be independent and make their own decisions as long as possible.</i><br />
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<i>After all their long years of sacrifice, it's time for them to be comfortable and worry free.</i><br />
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I've seen my step-mom (who married my dad nearly 40 years ago) care for her own two children, my 5 younger siblings, her mother, her step father, her sister and numerous grandchildren. She set the example for us to follow.<br />
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Mom still toddles around the house, letting the dog out, fixing herself peanut butter toast, watching Law and Order, keeping her own hours - some days up early and some days not. She misses Dad, who has been gone for almost 2 years, desperately, and I can only imagine how hollow her life would be if she were not able to walk through the house they designed and remodeled together and feel that once in a lifetime love she feels for him.</div>
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Mom wants to stay in her home...and as long as she can we kids should strive to make that possible. Always so independent in life, she doesn't believe she needs people here, but she does.<br />
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<b>First and foremost for safety. </b> The elderly have been living as independent adults for upwards of 60 years. They don't see the dangers of living alone with progressive heath deterioration. They often like to age the way they lived...they tackle problems as they come. But problems usually come as a surprise.<br />
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When I was visiting over a year ago Mom fell and was on her bedroom floor for who knows how long. When she was taken to the hospital she was admitted for a UTI and stayed there for more than three weeks. That was one of the experiences that helped me make the decision to move in. One sibling who lives close by was coming every day to check on her but it was just not enough, as she works full time and has her own family to care for. We didn't want Mom to have an accident and then suffer waiting for someone to come by. My sibling was worried night and day. Mom has always been so independent and has had a hard time asking for help....and now with the added malady of dementia she often doesn't think about help..only how she can get herself out of a bind.<br />
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<b>Secondly for companionship</b>. The Elderly sometimes feel that their younger family members are too busy with their own lives and forget about them. Sometimes this is true. But, I had promised my dad before he passed that we children would take care of her.<br />
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No one else was able to or chose to move in with her. I left my job and sold my home in another state to make sure she would not be alone any more. Difficult as it was, I regret nothing and would make that decision again. I am fulfilling the promise I made to Dad. I knew he was waiting for me to step up and keep that promise.<br />
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I follow the lead of my youngest sister who has been caring for her daily for over a year. We visit and talk silly nonsense to her, make her smile and let her know she is loved. We plan family meals and gather around the dinner table catching up and laughing. Always laughing.<br />
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<b>Thirdly for the pets. </b>Would any person want to move from their beloved home and NOT take their beloved animals? Animals provide constant, unrivaled companionship for persons living alone. Every day when Mom gets up she greets her dog, leans to kiss her and says, "I love you, you know that?" Saying I love you to someone, even an animal is a cathartic release representative of the love we all carry inside of us. It needs to be expressed.<br />
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And Buttons eats it up. She keeps Mom warm by sleeping on her lap. She keeps Mom engaged with by barking her little heart out at neighborhood noises and visiting cats. She keeps Mom active by asking to be let in and out of the house. Buttons is perfect. I firmly believe Mom would die without her dog.<br />
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<b>Fourth, for long term memory. </b> Being in familiar surroundings keeps her where she was when she started losing her memory. There are many forms of dementia, but when a person gets to stay in their own home it helps them to stay connected to their past and live in the present. Her long term memory still functions; her familiar Fenton Milk Glass Collection, powder blue curtains, myriad silk florals and her family pictures surround her with comfort that dates back over half a century.<br />
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Mom now gets be treated like the clan queen she is. My siblings and I cook, clean, take her to appointments and out to restaurants. We pay the bills, maintain the house, yard and vehicles. We monitor her medical conditions and consult with her physicians. We see to her needs and comfort. She trusts us to care for her. She loves us.<br />
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As life begins, so it ends: when we are young, our parents care for us, and when they are old, we in turn care for them. What an amazing blessing to participate and celebrate the great circle of life! Consider caregiving for your elders. If you can't, then do as much as you can to stay engaged in their lives. They may not remember visits, conversations, presents or names, but they will remember the love they feel when you reach out to them.<br />
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<br />Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-17092239862591524782018-06-24T16:13:00.003-07:002018-06-24T16:13:35.540-07:00Family Dream<div style="color: #1d2129; font-size: 14px; letter-spacing: -0.11999999731779099px; margin-bottom: 6px;">
I realized that my two cats with terminal conditions may be on their way to the rainbow bridge sooner than I'd like. I realized that although I am following the Spirit moving back to Upstate New York, I am sad to leave Olympic National Park so far away. I also realized that while the Lord blesses us all, I may never find a partner to share my life with. </div>
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I wept and prayed. I knew that Christ understood the loneliness bet<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; font-family: inherit;">ter than I ever could and asked Heavenly Father to help me remember the loneliness that Christ felt throughout his life. </span></div>
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He sent me a beautiful dream of my parents and siblings gathered around the Christmas tree in our tiny home when we were young. I was so happy to see my deceased mother, as I had not dreamed of her for a very long time. We were singing, "I Am a Child of God." I woke with a great sense of peace that I am never alone, and when I am sealed to both parents and my deceased brother my link to my ancestors will be very real. It is a great comfort to my sorrow.</div>
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Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-39670637746650648302018-06-24T16:08:00.002-07:002018-06-24T16:11:38.054-07:00GriefI knew I would grieve.<br />
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I knew I would be sad.<br />
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I did not know grief would wrap me in a cold blanket and drag me to the bottom of a frozen lake. I did not know it would rob me of my very desire to breathe, to move, to think. I did not know.<br />
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I did not know clothing would hurt. I did not know.<br />
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I did not know I would be so tired. I didn't know I would be so lonely. I did not know I would not care.<br />
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I did not know that food would taste bad. I did not know that cooking was a burden. I did not know chewing was exhausting.<br />
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I did not know moving would hurt. I did not know walking would exhaust me. did not know turning over in bed would be impossible. I just did not know.<br />
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I did not know I could fit so many dirty dishes in the sink. I did not know that cat boxes could smell so bad. I did not know I could look at cat puke and walk on by. I just did not know.<br />
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I did not know that I could carry on day after day, feeling this burden that would break me weigh on my heart. I did not know that I could smile for some one and lift their hearts, then return to my own shattered abyss. I did not know.Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-80813638664171370342018-06-24T16:07:00.003-07:002018-12-10T08:00:34.671-08:00ChangeI remember a saying from a Dine woman on the CBC show, "North of Sixty." She said, "Its good to cry when things change.<br />
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The tears started when I planned to donate my field guides of the Pacific Northwest and Olympic National Park. How can I move so far away from my beloved Olympic green mountains and coastal rainforest? How can I truly move back to Upstate New York?<br />
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I have to let myself grieve. Although I trust the spirit I am following, I am sad. Although I love the job I am leaving, I am sad. But, although I am doing a hard thing, I am going. And I am sad.<br />
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So, its good to cry when things change.<br />
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This move has been brewing for many years. I long for music of the crickets at night, the cicadas at noon. I yearn for the taste of winter on the wind and the crack of summer thunder. I ache for the silence of remote graveyards; the sunset over distant hills. I crave New York.<br />
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Home. I am going home. The home I didn't want to leave for the life I had to live. I can go back now; it's time.<br />
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Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-63668158998020953162018-06-24T16:07:00.002-07:002018-06-24T16:07:24.594-07:00Big ChangesLast fall I decided to move from my home in Washington State back to Big Flats, New York, on my beloved Allegheny Plateau. I had been missing home for many recent years, and the thought that I could perhaps live more cheaply and not have to work for my mortgage was very appealing. Plus, Dad had been gone for 8 months already and my step-mom was living alone. She still is; her health seems to be stable. So, I made the decision...and it was tough.<br />
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As I look back, I had really been making this decision for the last 5 years. When I finally said it out loud to a colleague last June, I felt like I had given birth. A burden was lifted. I admitted to myself in real words with real intent that I wanted to go back home.<br />
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And so I struggled.<br />
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I had accepted a position as a chemistry teacher at our brand new district high school... a job for which I was trained but had never actually done. I worked in an alternative program for 16 years and wanted to try something new. I was terrified. The staff, school culture and diversity got me through the year. It was a good, hard year.<br />
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And now the burden is lifted. I go to clean my classroom out tomorrow and say goodbye to my newest dear friends. I cried last week when my students left. Some of them cried, too. When my supervising administrator asked me what I was proudest of this year, I replied, "I tell the kids every day that I love them....and some days they tell me they love me back."<br />
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An adventure in love is what this year really was. Loving my content, loving my students, but most of all loving myself, and allowing myself the bravery to change.<br />
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So, here's to a good, hard summer...of packing and cleaning the house, accepting a good offer on it, signing the sale papers and road tripping back to New York! With two cats, no less! (And hopefully a friend and her dog.) Should be a marvelous event in history!Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-88847248873869806972017-07-26T10:34:00.002-07:002017-07-26T10:34:28.449-07:00Modern Day Pioneers<div style="-webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-stroke-width: initial; font-family: 'Book Antiqua'; font-size: 14px; line-height: normal; min-height: 17px;">
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">In the July 2013 First Presidency Message, President Thomas S Monson asked “Can we somehow muster the courage and steadfastness of purpose that characterized the pioneers of a former generation? Can you and I, in actual fact, be pioneers?</span><span style="background-color: white; font-kerning: none;"> </span><span style="font-kerning: none;">I know we can be. Oh, how the world needs pioneers today!” (1)</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Martin Luther King Jr. said“Faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">In our most recent General Conference, Elder Quentin L. Cook said. “Faith is a principle of power.” (2) He goes on to describe the story recounted in Luke, chapter 8, where a woman who in 12 years had exhausted all her resources and suffered from an illness of the blood, pressed toward the Savior in a crowd. She had the faith that if she could touch him she would be healed. When she succeeded, her illness was instantly cured. </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;"><b>46 </b>And Jesus said, Somebody hath touched me: for I perceive that virtue is gone out of me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;"><b>47 </b>And when the woman saw that she was not hid, she came trembling, and falling down before him, she declared unto him before all the people for what cause she had touched him, and how she was healed immediately.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;"><b>48 </b>And he said unto her, Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">How many times in life have we taken a first step? How many times have we walked into the unknown, seeing only that first step before us, the direction laid out but the end not in sight? I believe many times. My most memorable first step was that of baptism into the Lord’s church. I could not see all the sweet things in my life that true conversion to the Gospel of Jesus Christ would bring me, but I knew that if I chose to make the one right decision of being baptized I would be on the correct path. That decision, to act on my faith in the testimony of Jesus Christ has shaped and will shape the remainder of my life. Faith is powerful first step.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Brothers and Sisters, I ask you to take that first step.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">British Author, Douglas Adams, says “To give real service you must add something which cannot be bought or measured with money, and that is sincerity and integrity.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">In October General Conference of 1989, Elder Dallin H. Oakes said, “In every nation, in every worthy occupation and activity, members of this church face hardships, overcome obstacles, and follow the servants of the Lord Jesus Christ as valiantly as the pioneers of any age. They pay their tithes and offerings. They serve as missionaries or as Church Service volunteers, or they support others who do so. Like the noble young mothers who postpone the pursuit of their personal goals in order to provide the needs of their children, they sacrifice immediate pleasures to keep commitments that are eternal. They accept callings and, in the service of others, they willingly give their time and sometimes their lives.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">“They do as the Savior taught: They deny themselves; they take up their crosses daily; they follow Him. (See <a href="https://www.lds.org/scriptures/nt/luke/9.23?lang=eng#22"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; -webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(20, 126, 167); color: #147ea7;">Luke 9:23</span></a>.) These are those the Savior likened to the seed that fell on good ground: “in an honest and good heart, having heard the word, [they] keep it, and bring forth fruit with patience.” (<a href="https://www.lds.org/scriptures/nt/luke/8.15?lang=eng#14"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; -webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(20, 126, 167); color: #147ea7;">Luke 8:15</span></a>.)</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">“The fruits of the gospel issue from every honest and good heart, without regard to past origins or current positions in the Church.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">We have all served, both in and out of the church. Sometimes we serve with ease and joy, and this is good. But sometimes when we serve we can be tired, uncomfortable and downright irritable. It is then we must step back from ourselves, put off our selfish nature and do for others what they cannot do for themselves. It is then we will truly find Christ in our lives and emulate the stalwart spirit of the pioneer.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Brothers and Sisters, I ask you to serve with sincerity and integrity.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">(Obedience)</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Latter-day Saints strive to be obedient to the laws of the Gospel. The commandments instruct us on matters of duty to God, personal morality, family relationships and interactions with all God’s children. Collectively, they construct the ultimate user’s manual for our mortal and immortal existence. While you seek to keep the commandments yourself, others will observe your example and gain testimony from it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">There are many voices seeking to pull us from the user’s manual, telling us we can find short-cut and alternate directions in diverse places. Some disregard the user’s manual altogether and seek out other instructions, the results thereof being disappointment and fleeting sensation. Sometimes, by our actions, we can encourage others to follow the wrong user’s manual.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">I love this quote from British author, Catherine Aird, “If you can't be a good example, then you'll just have to be a horrible warning.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">When Lehi saw the vision of the Tree of Life, he was the first of his family to reach the tree and partake of the fruit. Then he looked for his family and invited them to come to the tree with him. Not all of them came. Some did: Nephi and Sam and Sariah. But others did not, as they listened to the voices which pulled them away. Thus, we now consider this choice of Laman and Lemuel as ‘a horrible warning.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">“We are surrounded by persuasive voices, beguiling voices, belittling voices, sophisticated voices, and confusing voices. I might add that these are loud voices. I admonish you to turn the volume down and to be influenced instead by that still, small voice which will guide you to safety. Remember that one with authority placed his hands on your head after you were baptized, confirming you a member of the Church and saying, “Receive the Holy Ghost.”</span><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; -webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(20, 126, 167); color: #147ea7;"> </span><span style="font-kerning: none;"> Open your hearts, even your very souls, to the sound of that special voice which testifies of truth. As the prophet Isaiah promised, “Thine ears shall hear a word … , saying, This is the way, walk ye in it.”</span><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; -webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(20, 126, 167); color: #147ea7;"> </span><span style="font-kerning: none;"> May we ever be in tune, that we might hear this comforting, guiding voice which will keep us safe. (4)</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Brothers and Sisters, I ask you to be good examples.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">You are a pioneer</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Mahatma Gandhi said, “The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">While serving his mission in the Holy Land, people often marveled at the Savior’s willingness to forgive. Of course, he had the authority to forgive sins, but why was he so willing to do it? The answer is in His holy purpose in the plan of redemption: to be the sacrificial lamb for his brothers and sisters, who, if they repent, could be cleansed through his atoning sacrifice. And while those he taught then (and even us today) struggle to understand this great love, he has commanded us to repent and be partakers of eternal salvation.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">“One of the most Godlike expressions of the human soul is the act of forgiveness. Everyone is wronged at some point by someone, and many suffer serious wrongs. Christians everywhere stand in awe of those pioneers who have climbed that steep slope to the spiritual summit attained by those who have heeded the Savior’s command to forgive all men. (See <a href="https://www.lds.org/scriptures/nt/matt/6.14-15?lang=eng#13"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; -webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(20, 126, 167); color: #147ea7;">Matt. 6:14–15</span></a>; <a href="https://www.lds.org/scriptures/dc-testament/dc/64.9-10?lang=eng#8"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; -webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(20, 126, 167); color: #147ea7;">D&C 64:9–10</span></a>.) Forgiveness is mortality’s mirror image of the mercy of God.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">“…many modern Saints do their pioneering on the frontiers of their own attitudes and emotions. The proverb says, “He that ruleth his spirit [is better] than he that taketh a city.” (<a href="https://www.lds.org/scriptures/ot/prov/16.32?lang=eng#31"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; -webkit-text-stroke-color: rgb(20, 126, 167); color: #147ea7;">Prov. 16:32</span></a>.) Modern Saints know that one who subdues his own spirit is just as much a pioneer as one who conquers a continent. (3)</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Forgiveness need not be a mountain we cannot climb, or a soft word we cannot speak. While some waste useless energy on harboring grudges and anger, others find that forgiveness needs to be awarded often and wholeheartedly. Sometimes we do not know that we have need to forgive others until distasteful or unkind memories surface, but we can forge through pain and sorrow to feel the blessed relief and Godliness on the other side.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Brothers and sisters, I ask you to be strong.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">In the Name of Jesus Christ, Amen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">(1) Thomas S. Monson, <a href="https://www.lds.org/ensign/2013/07/the-world-needs-pioneers-today?lang=eng"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; color: #333333;">https://www.lds.org/ensign/2013/07/the-world-needs-pioneers-today?lang=eng</span></a> </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">(2) Quentin L. Cook <a href="https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2017/04/foundations-of-faith?lang=eng"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; color: #333333;">https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2017/04/foundations-of-faith?lang=eng</span></a></span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">(3) Dallin H Oakes, <a href="https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1989/10/modern-pioneers?lang=eng"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; color: #333333;">https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1989/10/modern-pioneers?lang=eng</span></a> </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">(4) Thomas S. Monson, <a href="https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2015/10/keep-the-commandments?lang=eng"><span style="-webkit-font-kerning: none; color: #333333;">https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2015/10/keep-the-commandments?lang=eng</span></a> </span></div>
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We celebrated Dad's life today and he was laid to rest with full military honors in Big Flats, NY. The service was beautiful and Dad was honored and remembered by many friends and family. Sometimes I think I will wake up and find this has all been a bad dream, but the shared bonds of sorrow that we have experienced declare that this is an inevitable rite of passage of all families; to put their patriarch to rest and move forward in sweet memory. </div>
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See you on the flip side. Res<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">t well, Dad, after all your long years you've made it...you've crossed the bar. </span></div>
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Crossing the Bar, by Alfred, Lord Tennyson</div>
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Sunset and evening star,<br />
And one clear call for me!<br />
And may there be no moaning of the bar,<br />
When I put out to sea, </div>
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But such a tide as moving seems asleep,<br />
Too full for sound and foam,<br />
When that which drew from out the boundless deep<br />
Turns again home. </div>
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Twilight and evening bell,<br />
And after that the dark!<br />
And may there be no sadness of farewell,<br />
When I embark; </div>
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Many of you have captured Pokemon today. Many of you have captured free Slurpees from 7 Eleven. I have not captured anything today. For me, it has been a day of quiet remembrance of the woman who gave me life.<br />
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While growing up, July 4 started a week of celebrations...fireworks for America, a birthday cake for me on July 7, and then 4 days of sneaking around until my mother's birthday on July 11. My dad would shuffle us off shopping or out of the house to share his birthday pl<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">ots with us. It usually involved something blue, being wrapped in blue and tied up with blue, as blue was my mother's favorite color. </span><br />
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We'd always ask her what she wanted for her birthday, but she always said, "I don't need anything." Isn't that just like a mom? We kids could have been nicer to her, done our chores, stopped fighting and picked up after ourselves. Somehow we never thought of that, though. I seem to recall getting her things like perfume, blue soaps and blue nightgowns. She was always pleased with what we got her and never complained.<br />
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So today some of you may share her birthday, and while I remember her, on what would be her 85th year on earth, I am happy that I can remember you at the same time. It makes me smile, and although that does not assuage the guilt I have of being an unruly, ungrateful child, I know she would smile, as well, knowing that you share that special day with her when you came to earth.<br />
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Happy Birthday, Mom! It's been 40 years since I've seen you, but every time I see a blue soap or nightgown I think of you and how much I miss you. I love that I had you in my life for 16 years and that you were my biggest fan. My poems, my songs, my stories...all of them I wrote with the idea that you would be proud of me. I love you.</div>
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Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-50973297754316169052016-05-01T12:02:00.001-07:002020-07-31T19:10:48.444-07:00Moving On..."Moving On..."<br />
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On a recent visit with a dear friend whose spouse passed away, my friend commented that a family member kept urging, "move on." My response was, "how do you move on?"<br />
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I remember asking my bishop that a few years ago. How do I move on from my divorce? How does anyone move on from tragedy, pain, sorrow, loss of loved one, violence, illness or any unexpected, unpleasant event? How do I move on? His answer, "That's the question, isn't it?" I remember discussing that I wasn't ready to date again, that I liked being single and was not going to jump back into something that I was not quite sure I wanted again. In a nutshell, I HAD ISSUES... the most prominent being FEAR. How do I get past the FEAR?<br />
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The Atonement came up, of course; that Jesus understood whatever it was I was going through and offered healing balm to my soul. Did I want to be healed? YES. Did I want to forget the pain? YES. Did I doubt myself? ABSOLUTELY. Was I afraid? YOU BETCHA.<br />
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After discussing this with my friend, I returned to my hotel room, where I randomly opened the ever present Gideon's Bible to the following passage: Ecclesiastes chapter 3.<br />
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1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:<br />
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;<br />
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;<br />
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;<br />
5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;<br />
6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;<br />
7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;<br />
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.<br />
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I thought about this passage for several days...and asked, "What time is it for me?" It is a question befitting my recent year of indecision. There are times and seasons to all things, even indecision. When the Lord confirmed to me that it would be a good thing to sell my house, he did not confirm to me when or where I should move. In times like this....my indecision is a decision -- to wait on the Lord for a more specific answer. What else could the Lord be telling me at this time?<br />
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I believe I have heard Him saying this - "you have had a time to rend, break down, weep, mourn, lose, cast away stones, refrain from embracing and pluck up that which was planted. Now it is time for you to be born, build up, laugh, dance, embrace, get, keep, sew, plant, speak, love, heal and have peace."<br />
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It was then I realized that "MOVING ON " doesn't exist...but "MOVING FORWARD" does. We don't forget the experiences and feelings of our lives...times of joy, sorrow, kindness, violence, birth, death, pain, healing, illness, health...they make us who we are. As the Lord said to Joseph Smith in the Liberty Jail, "know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good." (Doctrine and Covenants, 122:7). And what is the good? MOVING FORWARD.<br />
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Not only are these experiences for our own good, but for the comfort and strengthening of others. As Prophet Alma said as he baptized in the Waters of Mormon, are we "willing to mourn with those that mourn; yea, and comfort those that stand in need of comfort?" (Mosiah, 18:9-question mark added.)</div>
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So do I "move on?" I'd say no. I'd say I "move forward," carrying my experiences with me, in one way or another. How do I move forward? I use the knowledge, empathy and compassion I have gained that makes me who I am today, and move forward by redefining my situations, relationships and experiences through my human lens of pure Gospel living and daily progression.<br />
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If I had to name this year, I would call it "The Year of Letting Go."</div>
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Letting go of 37 years of survival mode.<br />
Letting go of the need to care for others as a definition of my self worth.<br />
Letting go of unwanted, extra duties that tipped me over the cliff of burn out.<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;"><br />Letting go of any semblance of order in the chaos.<br />Letting go of old patterns, dysfunctionally discomforting.<br />Letting go of living for the future.<br />Letting go of the past that didn't work.<br />Letting go of 'have to's"<br />Letting go of the young adulthood of my daughter to discover the adult beautiful butterfly she is.<br />Letting go of long time friends, unexpectedly and unconditionally.<br />Letting go of anxiety, stress and depression.<br />Letting go of things that never were.<br />Letting go.</span></div>
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Penny Soutarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12180982062303264229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5243794280548033916.post-79799536159281635162015-11-11T10:50:00.001-08:002020-07-31T19:12:06.994-07:00Veterns' Day<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823; font-family: helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;">Every day I am keenly aware that our nation, my nation, has those to thank who were willing to lay down the plow and take up the sword to fight and keep us free. Not only in this nation, but in my ancestor's nations of Scotland, Ireland, England, France and Germany. We are where we are in history because of those who put themselves, their trades, professions and families aside to answer the call of liberty. </span><br />
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I am SO FRICKING FED UP with all these posts, memes and videos about common core math sucking, "if they taught us math this way we would have liked it" and "we learned it "THIS WAY”, I COULD SCREAM. There I just did it.<br />
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In my experience, every meme, video and post I have seen has shown math skills that WERE TAUGHT. These posters may not remember or have grasped the concepts. Most of these complaints involve mental math, number sense and geometric sense. <br />
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As a math instructor and lover of mathematics, what most people don't understand is the BEAUTY OF MATHEMATICS. They don’t use much higher mathematics in their everyday lives. They don't see the patterns, values and relationships. But they are blaming teachers, school districts and now common core because they didn't understand it and spread these destructive memes that discredit today’s educational endeavors.<br />
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Can you honestly say that you remember EVERY SINGLE math lesson you were ever taught? No—and I don't either. I am still learning with every math lesson I teach: a new insight, understanding and relationship with the world of logic, patterns, symbols, algorithms and values. We are all on a different plane of understanding in each area of our lives, INCLUDING MATH. <br />
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Mathematics is beautiful, entertaining, the language of the universe. Don't blame the teachers, standards and school boards because you don't remember it the way it is being taught today. Because students learn and understand in so many different ways, different approaches to instruction (including instruction in multiple algorithms for solving mathematics problems) are ESSENTIAL to education in today's world of ever increasing speed of knowledge acquisition, use and transference. This is what you DEMAND from teachers and DESIRE for your students: individualized education in today’s currently overflowing public school classrooms. The only way to do that is to teach MULTIPLE methods of problem solving, enhancing students’ opportunities for understanding and encouraging them to discover their own strengths and weaknesses. Can we do any less to properly prepare our students for their future in the workplace and society? NO. We owe it to them. They deserve it.<br />
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So go ahead, post your memes and complain about standards, but remember that as you propagate information that you perhaps do not understand yourself, you poison others who have the most influence on the students of today and the future—their parents. <br />
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See: <a href="http://www.corestandards.org/about-the-standards/myths-vs-facts/">http://www.corestandards.org/about-the-standards/myths-vs-facts/</a></div>
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As I just spent about 3 weeks driving around some western states, I have gained great appreciation for those who settled the desert areas of the west. They came in wagons and on foot and cleared the sage brush and rocks by hand. Plowed with horses or men pulling their primitive but effective equipment. Driving in the deserts, it's amazing to see scrub and cacti on one side of the road and thriving fields of cotton, potatoes, alfalfa and corn on the other. </div>
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America was built b<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">y 'blue collar workers' and 'rednecks'. Those of us who live now, or who have not had to struggle so physically to make our lives happen really owe our existence, lifestyles and whole nation to those who broke their backs surviving and making the desert bloom.</span></div>
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They, the builders of the nation,<br />
Blazing trails along the way;<br />
Stepping-stones for generations<br />
Were their deeds of ev’ry day.<br />
Building new and firm foundations,<br />
Pushing on the wild frontier,<br />
Forging onward, ever onward,<br />
Blessed, honored Pioneer!</div>
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